We had a pretty busy, and fun weekend, for a change. Yesterday, we hung out at the house most of the day, playing on our computers & then we went to our troth & hung out, drumming & visiting until almost 11:30. Troy was feeling a lot better & our friends Mark & Sarah were visiting from Idaho, so we wanted to spend as much time as possible with them. This morning, Charley & Vicki invited Mark, Sarah, Dawn, her kids & us over for brunch & we ended up staying from 10-5:20, just hanging out, visiting, playing games & window shopping. It was great & like old times, in the process we managed to plan our Christmas party.

We raced back home, had a quick sandwich & went to Dawn’s house to play D&D, which was great fun. When we were done, we watched The Simpsons & came home. I’m not excited for thenormal week to start, we never seem to see our friends or do much together.

I’m a little stressed & disappointed, though. We never did get that notice from our loan company about not having to pay December’s installment & we were counting on that money for Christmas. Now with all of the hospital bills & such, I doubt we’ll even be able to do the little we had planned. I long for the days when Troy worked at the cable company, at least they sent him home with tons of promotional products, and a lot of those made cool gifts for the kids. Oh well, I imagine that theyu’ll understand that things are tight this year & we’ll all move on, at least we’re all still here & we have that to be thankful for, for sure.

Troy & I braved the crowds this morning to try to get an mp3 player for Erin for Christmas. I felt bad for Troy, he was having to make sure no one bumped into him & was getting fatigued, too. There were so many people already there, lined up by the stacks of merchandise when we got there at 4:45, I couldn’t believe it. They had a guy on the intercom, counting down the time & by the time the sale actually started, I had the two pairs of jeans I was getting for Rhi staked out & had Troy off in the background, waiting with the cart.

I went through that area trying to get whatever they still had that we wanted & by the time we made it back to electronics, there was only one of the mp3 players we wanted left & Troy couldn’t get over to it to grab it. That’s okay, we got him a different one that he’ll like just as much, I think & Troy grabbed me a nice camera, too. I swear, some people see a good price on something & they just grab it up, even if they have no idea who they’re buying it for. I think they could stock grass skirts & bamboo shades in the middle of winter & if the price was low enough, people would be filling their carts with them.

I’m just hoping that the clothes I bought Rhi will fit her, I know the jeans will, just not sure about a couple of other things. If not, that’s okay, I’m sure she’ll find someone who can wear them & it’s not like I paid that much for them to begin with. So, what about all of you, did you go out shopping this morning? Did you get any great deals?

Troy was released from the hospital on Saturday, just after noon. I was so happy when he called me & told me to come & get him. The bad thing has really been than I woke up with the flu that day & have felt pretty bad ever since. I got Troy out of there at about 12:45 & we headed up to fill his prescription. I grabbed some cold medicine while we were out & took it when I got home. Rhi & I went to get groceries, and I think that was one of the worst experiences I’ve had in a long time. I was just so exhausted from being sick & felt horrible along with it. I was about to pass out by the time we got to the cashier.

Thankfully, the kids brought everything in & helped me get it all put away & our friend Eric cooke us dinner & brought it over, which I thought was a really sweet thing to do for us & was hugely appreciated (I hadn’t had a home-cooked meal all week). The doctor put Troy on a 1200 calorie a day, lowfat diet, so we’re changing everything we eat & jumping into it with both feet. As soon as he feels recovered enough, we plan to start wakking every day, too. We’re pretty excited about it, it’s soi nice to actually have a second chance.

For those of you who didn’t read the update on my craft blog, Troy’s been in the hospital since Monday morning. (go read it so I don’t have to type it all out again!) He was finally moved out of his room on the ICU last night and into a room with far fewer electronics beeping & humming, other than when he gets antibiotics and such, at any rate. We had been hoping for a discharge yesterday, which was what his doctor was aiming for, but he decided to keep him for at least one more day to make sure he was past the fever.

I kind of had an emotional breakdown yesterday when we found out, I was just so ready for him to be at home where I can take care of him & know what’s going on. I just miss him so much & am so tired of being at the hospital all day long, every day. It seems like nothing around here is ever getting done now, including a much-needed trip to buy groceries. I hope he’ll be discharged today& I know he does, too. I’m just kind of waiting around & dealing with some cramping & such before I go back up there today.

Troy’s still not feeling really well, and now he’s taken some meds that we have to wait on, so we can’t make any plans for the weekend, because he needs to stay close to the bathroom for awhile. Oh well.  Maybe he should have listened to me 3 days ago, he wouldn’t be going through this now, at any rate.

I’m not feeling great, either, but I really do think I just have a cold. I’m not nauseated or anything, which is always good. Just tired, headachey & lazy. And fat. There’s always the fat. I need to talk to my sister-in-law at Thanksgiving & find out what diet pills her doctor had her on a few years ago. She lost a bunch of weight & has kept it off since then, so I know it worked, at least for her.

I’ve had dishes waiting to be washed for days, and now there are even more added to them, because they never seem to get done. I wish, just once, someone would see the sinks full of dirty dishes & just do them, on their own, without me asking. That would be a nice, adult thing for any of the other 3 adults that live here to do. Why does it always have to be me? I’m not the only one who lives here, I have other things that need to be done every day, too & I don’t dirty them all on my own. I don’t make most of the messes in the house, quite frankly, but I’m still expected to clean them up, apparently.

I guess griping about it isn’t going to get them done, either, is it?

It’s going to be one of those weeks, I think. You know the type I’m talking about, where you just want to escape from everyone & get a hotel room all alone. I don’t think I’d even tell Troy the phone number at this point. I’m so tired of getting my feelings hurt this week. The three of them love to do this thing where they pretend to be angry at you & pretend to argue, so that I always feel like someone is mad at me & that I’m doing something wrong. I really don’t ever notice them doing that to each other, just to me & I’m the one in the family that really hates to argue. I’ll go out of my way to avoid an argument with any of them, to the point of driving away for an hour or two, then if I call them on it they start in for real, like cerebral palsy lawyers trying to win a settlement for their clients.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. Do I let them keep playing this stupid game & just shut up so I can avoid the real argument or do I confront them, causing an argument every time they do it to me?Arguing with them truly does break my heart & it always seems like I’m the only one it ever bothers for very long. I can still be sad for a day or so after an argument, they get over it in a few minutes. I know I’m probably over-reacting, but I don’t know how to stop doing it.